Was rotting at home these 2 days mainly to recover myself from the high fever ):
was listening to this song and it reminded me of my secondary school life,
I miss those days <3
Those days where I wouldn't have so much to think about,
where my life just revolves around O levels.
and where my friends are with me everyday.
Will be meeting Sophia <3 on oct, I missed her like mad );
[People call me a quiet girl. But actually, no, I'm not a quiet girl. Yes, i don't talk much. But its because no one ever bothers to listen. I get angry easily, i get sad easily. Yet no one ever knows the reasons, because i don't tell anyone my problems. People don't seems to care. People always leave me in the end. I always wonder why they leave me, when i didn't do anything wrong. They just drift from me whenever they meet new people. I wonder why, why can't I have a bestfriend who i could confide everything in ? Someone who won't betray me, leave me or forgotten about me ? WHY?]
Tumblr speaks about my life.
When I'm quiet, thousands of things are going through my mind,
I hate my moodswings.
On a happy note, something for me to look forward for since my manager never gave me any work
I'm going out with the people I love on tmr and wed <3
okay, I always go out with the people I love ._.
A year ago, I was so upset with someone,
I cried and cried multiple times.
I never felt the love,
I never felt the happiness that was supposed to have occurred.
A year later, I feel so blessed,
I found God,
I found you <3,
I found out what I want in my life.
[You are willing to stop flirting with other people to prove it to them. You are willing to stay up late even if you’re really sleepy and tired. You instantly “miss” them as soon as you guys get off the phone. You start to think about the future with them and you just can’t help but smile. When someones “worth it”, don’t let them get away. He is worth it.
Don't, let them get away.]
Love finds you when you least expected it to be, so keep the hope up, ladies. And fight for your own happiness <3
tmr’s result’s release, I hope to see a bit of rise please, I know my IT & ITBD gone case already,
):
“When I first saw you, I never imagined how much you mean to me”
Okay, this is going to be a long and draggy post, been bottling up what I’ve been feeling for the past 2-3 mnths.
I always thought I could never like someone again,
like develop feelings for someone,
I told myself that I will never get into a relationship until I graduate,
seeing what a relationship has gotten me in during Sem 1.2,
I told myself not to.
Then, my friend said this to me when I she found out about him
: Love finds you when you least expected it to be.
He was the last person I thought I would like,
well, our age is one problem,
second, I told myself never to get into a relationship.
When the camp ended, I thought that is the end of everything,
we would be back to hi-bye friends in school.
But, next day, he mass sent an email and that was when everything changed.
The feeling of anticipation when I open my email,
just to check if he replied,
and when I decided to end the convo, he started again, bringing my hopes high again.
I didn’t know if he treated me like a lil sis’ because of our age differences,
or is he just treating me as a very good friend,
he treats everyone so nice.
There were times when you talked as if I’m bothering you,
then you sent a “(:” back
there were times when we talked as if we were long lost friends,
and I missed sending emails to you
You were the last person to reach at the camp,
you were the last person whom I talked to in our group,
but,
now you’re the first person I want to talk to.
You’d never expect that how fast my heart skipped when you were talking to me on Wednesday,
You’d never expect how happy when I knew you were going to the same place as I am on Wednesday,
You’d never expect how red my face blushed on Wednesday,
You’d never expect how I wished the time stopped on Wednesday.
:shy: factor x1000000000
ohgwad-__-
It’s been a year since my heart skipped so fast,
and when we stand so close to each other till our shoulders touched :X OMGOMGOMG! *blush x100000*
The things you said on Wednesday started to flow back to me bit by bit.
I will remember how you patted my head and say “everything’s fine now”
and to warned me about the spider.
I will remember how you asked me to beware of molesters,
I will remember on Wednesday
I can be blur and dumb,
I did not get your hint,
but, get mine now okay ? (:
If you like her, go for her, STOP using me as a shield
If you like her, go ask for her number on your own, STOP being a coward.
If you like her, say “I like you” and STOP being such an asshole.
You have to understand that it’s about my attitude problem,
it’s about the way you keep putting me down. You make me feel like a useless piece of shit. If that’s your intention, good for you. You have really made me felt so useless.
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU FOR 5 YEARS AND I WILL NOT TOLERATE YOU ANYMORE. GRRRR.
you know how hard is it for me to face her? Everytime I face her, I am reminded of you (bastard)’s nonesense, saying, oh, she never scream, you scream for what. NABEHY
I kept the secret for you for 5 years and all these for the suan-ing and putting me down.
geez, make me angry only, I snap not because of my poor attitude, but because you kept putting me down,
everytime I see her, I will feel useless, feel that I am a piece of shit, a very useless person.
Thank God I won’t be seeing you (:
Done ranting.
On a happy note,
Wed, come faster ehh <3
and Wed please don't end so soon XD hehehe
